On the foggy road, we always try to have an sight into the barrenness and dusk, or, resplendence and brightness of the future.
Since you said that everything keeps continuing to collapse, then turning into the zero finally, I've gradually felt anxious, disorientated or taken the posture of escaping, because, I love to see positive aspects of the existence all the time. When the negative ones make me stuck, or entice me to fall into a dead-end-like circle (even though it's temporary), I only have the impulse of screaming or crying of madness.
However, no matter how bad thoughts I sometimes have, or the bemusement or the horror in my mind, during our separation in different cities, I still can't help viewing you as my most important partner in my life. Behind all this, is the awakening on the edge of an illusion built on the wrongness and selfishness, the sweetness rushing to my heart, and the bunchy yearning every day, every night.
Always, you are willing to take care of me, which seems like you never abandon me, even though I am so fucked up, losing my mind, stumbling, and puking everywhere.. Always, you worry about me a lot (like..when I don't seem so fine), can't let it go, and wish that you could be with me at that moment. I worry about you too.
I've already seen you as my husband. What I am not willing to be faced with, is all the block, or dilemma.
版主對錢人豪先前的作品，僅熟知《混混天團》（同樣也是因緣際會下觀賞該片特映，也同樣是在看完後，不知該作何感想....），這號稱台灣影史上第一部活屍片（活屍與僵屍應該沒有甚麼差別吧，所以台灣早就拍過啦，不過近幾年追著西方的風格與內涵，硬要拍得如喬治羅密歐(George A. Romero)那般<<當然不是說拿來抄...，畢竟大多歐美活屍片都受喬治羅密歐的影響>>，可以說《棄城》是台灣第一），資金主要是靠網友集資，說到預算，根據導演所說，還不到一千萬，這看起來不時得要動用龐大陣仗的臨演、精細的化妝術與特效，這預算少得可憐；另外，錢導也強調多次關於輔導金的問題 (在電影裡頭，也無厘頭的把輔導金拿來打嘴砲，連某個特以藝術手法拍片的未具名導演也中槍，不用說也知道是誰....），反正，政府也是很吝嗇的，近年號稱主打文創與推行台灣國片，實際上那些資助永遠都不夠，反而將許多錢拿去蓋毫無用處的蚊子館....。